Die geheimen Tagebücher von einer verderbten Existenz

Behind these gates you will hear my thoughts screaming like nerves under the sun and feel my emotion laughing to the empty ether.
Welcome Dear Wanderer, make yourself at home.
The road is long and tortuous and I hope you enjoy yourself.

Fraternally Yours,
Poison Creeper

Friday, 27 November 2009

Dingsaller - Einsturzende Neubauten lyrics + translation [ from Silence is sexy]

?ber den Liebenden gibt es kein Gesetz
Unter den Liebenden z?hlt die Regel nicht
Wegen der Liebenden gibt es M?glichkeit
Und ohne die Liebenden lohnt die Suche nicht

[About the lovers, there is no law
Among the lovers, the rule does not count
Because of the lovers, there is possibility
And without the lovers is not worth the search]

Dingsallerdingsallerdingsdingsaller

?ber den Liebenden gibt es kein Gesetz
Unter den Liebenden ist die s?sse Bahn
Neben den Liebenden schmilzt das ewige Eis
aber ohne die Liebenden ist Scheitern programmiert
Du scheiterst heute, scheiterst morgen
scheiterst immer besser
Und irgendwann scheiterst du nicht

[About the lovers, there is no law
Among the lovers of the sweet path is
In addition to the lovers melt the permanent ice
but without the lovers is programmed to fail
You scheiterst today, tomorrow scheiterst
scheiterst always better
And sometime you do not scheiterst]

Dingsallerdingsallerdingsdingsaller Allerdings

Heute spielt Fortuna wieder Schach mit dir
spekuliert darauf das du die K?nigin verlierst
Du gehst in die Stadt und findest sie nicht
Es sieht so aus, du verlierst die Partie
Oder vielleicht sie endet mit Remis
Fortuna gibt selten nur Revanche
Besser ein Kuss vereitelt ihre Strategie

[Today, Fortune again play chess with you
speculated that the you lose the Queen
You go into town and they do not find
It looks like you lose the game
Or maybe it ends with a draw
Fortuna is rarely revenge
Better foiled a kiss its strategy]

Dingsallerdingsallerdingsdingsaller

?ber den Liebenden gibt es kein Gesetz
Unter den Liebenden z?hlt die Regel nicht
Hinter den Liebenden die Worte sind ger?umt
Ohne die Liebenden nur sprachlos flaches Land
Trotz blauer Flecke und Blessuren
Ich gebe euch hiermit neue Suren:
Exclusiv f?r die, f?r die nichts steht

[About the lovers, there is no law
Among the lovers, the rule does not count
Behind the lovers, the words are cleared
Without the lovers just speechless flat land
Despite bruises and injuries
I hereby give you new suras:
Exclusive for those for whom nothing is]

Dingsallerdingsallerdingsdingsaller
Dingsallerdingsallerdingsdingsaller
Dingsallerdingsallerdingsdingsaller
Dingsallerdingsallerdingsdingsaller
Allerdings

Thursday, 26 November 2009

A Legacy of Unrest

master, i praise you

i've come here to tame

the demands of the flesh

i've come to forget my name

we all thought that the moon

should be turned to blood

and that it's the worst thing

to want for one who comes not

but there's nothing left than to obey

all of their laws of wealth

always fighting on both sides

no denial, no denial

master, i serve you

and i serve the language

of failure and doubt

i've come to sell you my anguish

we all thought that the moon

should be turned to blood

and that it's the worst thing

to try to please and please not

but there's nothing left than to obey

all of their laws of wealth

always fighting on both sides

no denial, no denial

yes, there's nothing left than to obey

all of their laws of wealth

master, are you taking sides?

no denial, no denial

and it feels like spring again

we've sealed this feel again

though you tried to blind me

i still saw you blush

it feels like spring again

we've sealed this feel again

though you tried to blind me

though you tried to blind me

we do not pause, we do not rest

so do not speak, please do not test

my nerve like this, in a season like this

we do not pause, we do not rest

so do not speak, please do not test

my nerve like this, in a season like this

you tried to blind me

you tried to blind me...

Tuesday, 24 November 2009

Feme Mirage - The Legendary Pink Dots lyrics

I rise from sleep, as a ray strokes my shoulder. Wishing to walk unveiled
to the world - my flesh on view. These things stand in our way - the cold
of the earth, the state of our minds. And the camouflage. The sticky
threads that communicate the meaningless in a thousand different ways. My
voice shuns your honey words on hour glass shapes. On the fragile, unreal,
objects of desire. The words don't flow, neither the feelings. No more ink
on wood to betray my thoughts. Just this - a cry on the dark side.

Thursday, 19 November 2009

Heaven is of Honey - Einsturzende Neubauten Lyrics

Heaven is of Honey
and kisses
beeswork
blossomchannels
How do I know?
How could I forget?

Heaven is in the making
a buildingsite
a possibillity
If there's a glimpse of it
In the little dance of tongues

As a reminder!

Heaven is all remembered
is an idea
for idiots
possessed by gods
that just waste space
and in case I wake up without a pen
I do not want to forget

Heaven is of Honey
and kisses
Royal Jelly
for the queenbee
in the center
How do I know?
How could I forget?

Kristus kut Netrelease - Free downloads of dark ritual/noise tracks - enjoy!


hi my darlings..

to brighten up the darkening days.. (for those below the equador, the lightening days) here some nice links to get some real nice music.

KISS OF THE BLACK QUEEN. 11 tracks. noise with tribal elements. with trance elements. and of course the famous dark ritual soundscapes that has become the trademark of KK.
released on a black cdr in an dvd box with full color artwork made by JM of the equilibrium mailorder.

just click on the picture below to get a direct link to Quartier23




if you are cheap and want some stuff for free...
1. THE MAMBO KISS. and yes that is a very romantic title i know... it was inspired by the feelings one can have when the heart wins it over the mind. somemoment where logic gets beaten by feeling.
logic is not always getting you anywhere. so this release is about getting free from logic. to get carried away by feelings.
for a free experience just click on the image below





2. -done in the same way- HAIL THE BLACK QUEEN. i recorded those two in the same period. HAIL THE BLACK QUEEN is more agressive. makes you tear down the walls while THE MAMBO KISS helps you to explore your innerself. just say one for the outer world and one for the inner world.
well try it my darlings...





and if you are searching for some soundtrack for your monofocal sex rituals
try:

SOUNDTRACKS FOR MASTURBATION SESSIONS 3
THE FACIAL EDITION


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well go download and start your meditiation darlings
muchos lovos
LSB

Thursday, 12 November 2009

Odessa - Rome Lyrics

it is but a dated flower i bring to you

yes, it is but a violet glistening with dew

for in our hearts our love for you lies unrevealed

a stale romance and the solitude we share

have dragged you to the beach to find me there

every promise undone glittering in the sun

in the golden sway of violence

that morning you came and you stood in disbelief

in longing and shame - the presentiment of grief

to forgive and to define this treachery of mine

you took off your clothes in silence

this sweet blue secrecy, the demands of destiny

now who will serve your pleasure, who will serve your greed?

Now that the men you treasured belong to the fleet

and watch the morrow?s tide, that frail and beautiful bride

what a very strange season this is

from the tender axe of springtime, defying the snows

to the streaming summer?s hatchet she rose

now all covered with lime under an indifferent sky

we smother everything in kisses

will we know eternity? Will we forge a way to see?

Who will serve your pleasure, who will serve your greed?

Now that the men you treasured belong to the fleet

and watch the morrow?s tide, that frail and beautiful bride

what a very strange season this is

from the tender axe of springtime, defying the snows

to the streaming summer?s hatchet she rose

now all covered with lime under an indifferent sky

we smother everything in kisses

oh, we smother everything in kisses


Sorrow for letting someone else define you
Know who you are at every age
What impression am I making?
I see me as other people see me

There is no going back
I can't stop feeling now
I am not the same, I'm growing up again
I am not the same
I'm growing up again
There's no going back I can't stop feeling now

I had to fantasize
I was a princess, Mum and Dad were Queen and King
I ought to have what feeling?
I see me as other people see me

There is no going back
I can't stop feeling now
I am not the same, I'm growing up again
I am not the same
I'm growing up again
There's no going back I can't stop feeling now

Feeling now

There is no going back, and
I can't stop feeling now
I am not the same, I'm growing up again
I am not the same
I'm growing up again
There's no going back I can't stop feeling now

I had to fantasize
Just to survive
I was a famous artist
Everybody took me seriously

Even those who did
Never understood me
I had to fantasize
Just to survive

Femme Mirage - Legendary Pink Dots Lyrics

I rise from sleep, as a ray strokes my shoulder. Wishing to walk unveiled
to the world - my flesh on view. These things stand in our way - the cold
of the earth, the state of our minds. And the camouflage. The sticky
threads that communicate the meaningless in a thousand different ways. My
voice shuns your honey words on hour glass shapes. On the fragile, unreal,
objects of desire. The words don't flow, neither the feelings. No more ink
on wood to betray my thoughts. Just this - a cry on the dark side.

Bitter-Sweet The Venus In Fur Lyrics

Well, this is such a sad affair
I've opened up my heart so many times
But now it's closed

Oh my dear
Every salted tear
It wrings
Bitter-sweet applause

But when the show's in full swing
Every once in awhile
High stepping chorus lines
Mean I'm forgetting
Mein lullaby - liebchen

How rich in contrast
Love can be
Sometimes I'm quite amused
To see it twist and turn
To taste both sweet and dry
These vintage years
Lovers you consume, my friend
As others their wine

Nein - das ist nicht
Das ende der Welt
Gestrandet an Leben und Kunst
Und das spiel geht weiter
Wie man weiss
Noch viele 'schoum'....wiedersehen
(Translation of German lyrics:
No - this is not the end of the world
Stranded because of life and art
And the game goes on as you know
Schoum....see you)

And now, as you turn to leave
You try to force a smile
As if to compensate
Then you break down and cry

Wednesday, 11 November 2009

Maanam Biography

BIOGRAPHY
The group Maanam was founded in 1975. In the beginning the band was made up of Marek Jackowski - guitars and Kora (Olga Jackowska) - vocals, as well as: the Greek Milo Kurtis and Welsh John Porter. Marek Jackowski and Kora continue today to be responsible for the music and lyrics of the band's almost entire repertoire. Up until 1979 the band played acoustic rock: from orientalising suits and ballads to acoustic (!) punk rock and new wave. In 1979 the band became electrified. Its composition was: Kora, Marek Jackowski, Ryszard Olesiński - guitars, Krzysztof Olesiński - bass guitar (meanwhile Bogdan Kowalewski played the bass guitar) and Paweł Markowski - percussion. In the 1980s Maanam was the first Polish rock band to achieve great fame in the country (for almost five years the band performed several hundred concerts per year in Poland's largest concerts halls). Maanam was the ice-breaker in paving the way for a new wave of Polish rock. In 1980, at the Polish Song Festival in Opole, Kora and Maanam shocked the Polish audience. The punk hits "Boskie Buenos" and "Żądza pieniądza" caused a mini revolution.
The big revolution of Solidarity and Polish rock were the most characteristic events of the '80s in Poland. The state record company stopped producing the band's first two albums "Maanam" and "O!" due to the lack of ... vinyl. The band also appeared in a very popular film "Wielka majówka" (1981, dir. K. Rogulski). Maanam produced a large number of superhits the most important of which include "Stoję stoję", "Oddech szczura", "Szare miraże", "Hamlet", "Żądza pieniądza", "Boskie Buenos", "Szał niebieskich ciał", "Karuzela marzeń", "O!", "Paranoja jest goła", "Nie poganiaj mnie", "To tylko tango", "Krakowski spleen", "Jestem kobietą", "Eksplozja", "Zdrada", "Raz-dwa, raz-dwa", "Lucciola", "Simple Story", "Lipstick on the Glass".
Since 1984 Maanam performs successfully in West Germany and Holland. The band's albums titled "Night Patrol", "Totalski No Problemski - Maanam In Concert" and "Wet Cat" reach those markets. Maanam also performs at festivals in Roskilde and Turku. They play at London's Marquee, and the video clip to the song "Sie ściemnia" is the first Polish clip to be released on the then international MTV channel.
From 1986 to 1991, the band breaks from performing to rest from work.

I crave For You - Of The Wand and the Moon Lyrics + track

I crave for you
And the incense of night
To bathe
In the flame of your light


Cold Pale in sorrow
In the tears that followed
The years that swallowed
The innocence of my love
I crave for you

Killing For Company - Swans Lyrics + Video



I couldn't stop myself
I knew I'd do it again
But I could heal myself,
If I could feel your skin
And if I comprehend this moment
I know we'll live again
And if I heal your wound
We will make love again
And now we're slipping through this millenium
We should feel sorry for the people
Can I kiss your skin?
And there's hunger in the desert.
And missiles in the sky
And every soul is interwoven
Before the wrong or right
I know we'll live again
Though it's just a feeling
I know we'll never end
I'll keep you company


Gal anda vldr gangla
Vldr rithanda vldr rinnanda
Vldr sitianda vldr signanda
Vldr faranda vldr fliughanda

Skal alt fyrna ok um doia

And so the dreams lies shattered once again
And I can hear the ravens call at night
And the path...abandoned...leading nowhere
An omen fulfilled
And I loathe the dark
And I curse the gods

You Make it Easy - Air Lyrics

" Never been here - How about you ? "
You smile at my answer,
You've given me the chance,
To be held and understood.

You leave me laughing without crying,
There's no use denying,
For many times I've tried,
Love has never felt as good.

Be it downtown or way up in the air,
When your heart's pounding,
You know that I'm aware.

You make it easy to watch the world with love,
You make it easy to let the past be done,
You make it easy.

How'd you do it ? How'd you find me ?
How did I find you ?
How can this be true ?
To be held and understood.

Keep it coming - no one's running
The lesson I'm learning
'Cause blessings are deserved
By the trust that always could

Be it downtown or way up in the air,
When your heart's pounding,
You know that I'm aware.

You make it easy to watch the world with love,
You make it easy to let the past be done,
You make it easy.

You make it easy to watch the world with love,
You make it easy to let the past be done,
You make it easy.

New star in the sky

My baby blue is a new star,
In the sky,
The world the world the world the world,
Just for you for nobody else.

Swords To Rust, Hearts To Dust - Rome Lyrics

we shall let our songs drown

the rattle of the train

and the roaring of the crowd

we shall wet our throat with sticky dark wine

and toast this blood wedding so fine

to new horizons! to a new dawn!

to a new and reckless generosity!

for this our land of the free

we shall win, die or betray and turn

swords to rust - hearts to dust

in vain to write our name

in blood and in flowers of flame

swords to rust - hearts to dust

all blind and gone astray

our envy green as may

all smothered in wild flowers

we break the windows to breathe

that golden dawn is ours

for tonight hesitation is on leave

to wear god down

to flatten him out

to pray to no other

parley with death

to bury the crown

to silence all lovers

we shall turn

swords to rust - hearts to dust

in vain to write our name

in blood and in flowers of flame

swords to rust - hearts to dust

all blind and gone astray

our envy green as may

schwerter zu rost ? herzen zu staub!

dennoch die schwerter halten

dennoch die herzen spalten

swords to rust - hearts to dust

in vain to write our name

in blood and in flowers of flame

swords to rust - hearts to dust

all blind and gone astray

our envy green as may

Tuesday, 10 November 2009

Unclean



STATIONS OV THEE CROSS

PTV are attempting to knit together thee fine lines ov shamanic initiation and voodoo invokation allegorically coded into western X-tian myth. TV itself becoums thee ceremony, thee language ov thee tribe. It becoums apparent that, cloaked in spurious messianic trivia, are ancient tantric rituals involving small death, limbo and resurrection that have now been literalised and usurped by a base language system named religion. Just as religion cloaks ancient knowledge and techniques, so Television cloaks its power to invoke thee lowest coumon denominator ov revelation. We see S&M sex as an imperfect butter inevitable outlet for instinctive drives for rites ov passage and initiation. We believe sexuality was always included in ancient mysteries and that Television is in itself a new secret language, thee language rooted in lighting, camera perfection, edits, so it remains hidden and emasculating. We intend to reinstate thee ability ov TV to empower and entrance thee viewer. To remove thee window and passibity, and re-enter thee world ov dreams beyond. We believe TV is a Modern alchemical weapon that can have a positive and cumulative effect upon Intuition. An image is NOT a product ov Nature, it is a word in a silent and invisible Language system. A projected word that has meaning. This projected image is a set ov scans (visible marks) with a particular shape that beoums meaningful only if they follow thee rules which apply to thee language. Normally these scans/marks have meaning only in thee accepted, socially agreed order, not in other permutations ov that order. If we change Individual image scans we get new meanings new reverberations ov this TV language system. Minute changes in thee ratio ov Sound/Image creates radical differences in perspective and emotional response. Thee focus ov retinal attention is crucial, hence our use ov neurophysiological theory in thee placing ov monitors etc... A single Image Scan becoums meaningful by following thee rules ov thee TV language system, and programmes take their meaning from their place within that system. Once we have learned and "normalised" a language, we tend to forget this, to suppose that meaning derives from its reference to THINGS in a Real World. Not so. TV images are not, in this sense, necessarily pictures ov reality, not doorways either. They are usually used as windows. PTV try to invest them with thee older tradition ov Thresholds.

A PTV Image Scan does not signify a general, accepted and fixed idea. It is allegorical, metaphorical, symbolical, and trivial simultaneously. Thee reverberation ov possibility is our goal. We feel that thee connection between image, form and object is arbitrary. PTV are not interested in formulating conventional programming, we are closer to sorcerers transmitting and receiving pagan invokations in order to SEE.

Thee process is thee product.

What a camera may record no longer represents reality, it is not objective. So thee Image Scan (Word) is essentially different from thee viewed thing itself. If you look at images long enough, they cease to exist as a visual message. They becoum electronic images in their own right and a new evaluation, rooted in thee unconscious develops. It is an old trance technique in almost all so-called "primitive" cultures. Thee intuition becoums master in a world ov no specific meaning. Thee place where all dreams meet. Thee rules ov coumbination are deliberately coumfounded in a linguistic, behavioural and linguistic permutation. By playing around with thee Language System rules or by deliberately contravening them, we thus generate a surplus ov meanings. All meanings are possible, butter their relationship with thee original, real situation becoums problematic.

We encourage thee viewer to search for shape in multi-linear layers ov response. When PTV use Image Scans, they mean what we, thee artists, meant as well. Thee one does not negate thee other, rather, this multiplicity IS thee invoking medium itself, rather than preconcieved notions ov a TV product. TV language becoums a public affair that nobody really controls. Yet our exposure to this language means we inhabit thee language as we would inhabit a place. We get trapped inside and in terms ov language.

The history ov an Image Scan can have a profound effect on it.

Not only do we inhabit TV Language, we also inherit it, and part ov our inheritance is thee dense and coumplex history ov assumptions, implications, prejudices and corruptions that derive form thee way TV has been used in thee past. This again mirrors to us thee oppressive nature ov all religion, and X-tianity in particular.

Thee parallel to established, acceptable religions, to S&M sexuality, to tribal rites ov passage, is clear and potent. If we remove thee tableau to reveal thee central keyu, thee storyboard becoums a Still Life, yet also a Real Life. A decoded allegory, a description by default ov thee actuality ov reinforcers in religion would have us surrender to.

Thee crystal itself, not thee refracted light.

Genesis/Paula P-Orridge Seattle April 1 1988

Tuesday, 3 November 2009

All I Need - Air Lyrics

All I need is a little time,
To get behind this sun and cast my weight,
All I need is a peace of this mind,
Then I can celebrate.

All in all there's something to give,
All in all there's something to do,
All in all there's something to live,
With you ...

All I need is a little sign,
To get behind this sun and cast this weight of mine,
All I need is the place to find,
And there I'll celebrate.

All in all there's something to give,
All in all there's something to do,
All in all there's something to live,
With you ...

Monday, 2 November 2009

Haloween Setlist






















Zwyiolak - Czarodzielnica

Laibach - Sila

EN – Kalte Sterne

Lydia Lunch (8Eyed Spy) – 3x3

Swans – Celebrity Lifestyle

Nitzer Ebb – Captivate (William Orbit remix)

Marek Bois

Dirty Harry - Double B

SPK - Dancing On Dead Steps

Schwefelgelb – Zehn Schuss, Kein Treffer

CCCP- mi ami

Borghesia - A.R.

Warsaw- The Walk in Line

Persona Non Grata - Lacerados Hombres

Siouxsie And The Banshees - Slowdive

Depeche Mode – Boys say go! (R)