Die geheimen Tageb├╝cher von einer verderbten Existenz

Behind these gates you will hear my thoughts screaming like nerves under the sun and feel my emotion laughing to the empty ether.
Welcome Dear Wanderer, make yourself at home.
The road is long and tortuous and I hope you enjoy yourself.

Fraternally Yours,
Poison Creeper

Tuesday, 26 January 2010

Neofolk Fest @ Mistress Lucrezia (GE)- The Setlist

AIT! - make war not love

Allerseelen - lowin

Novy Svet - The World the Fish and the Devil

O paradis - Golgotha Personal

*** Lia Fail ***



Apua Mater - Albatros

Division S - Seven



***Egida Aurea***



Dernier Volonte - La Source

Triarii - Ode to the Sun

Ordo - Dreaming of my scarlet woman

Diamanda Galas - Malediction

Naevus - a Nausea





Crisis - uk 78 (R)

DAF- Sato Sato

RLYL - hollow eyes



Magazine - shot by both sides (R)

Generation x - dancing with myself (R)

Grauzone - eisbar

Malaria - you you (NYC)

Pere Ubu - Final Solution

Joy Division - No love Lost (R)

Clock DVA - 4 hours

Siouxsie - slowdive (R)





this is what I remember so far...

update in progress...

pictures @ www.myspace.com/blackrainbowradio

Thursday, 21 January 2010

Captivate - Nitzer Ebb

Out in the fields
Out in the woods
You come for me
I can feel your hands
I can feel your hands
Up from the floor
Down on the bed
You feel for me
I can hear your heart
And i am not going to want to go
Away
And i am not going to give in to you
In love
Because i want it all
Captivate, captivate
All that we've got to give
Captivate, captivate
Because i want it all
Captivate, captivate
Corrupt my soul
Under the sun
Out in the wind
You run with me
You run with me
I can taste your mouth
I can feel your hands
And i am not going to want to go
Away
And i am not going to give in to you
In love
Because i want it all
Captivate, captivate
All that we've got to give
Captivate, captivate
Because i want it all
Captivate, captivate
All that we've got to give
Captivate, captivate
Because i want it all
Captivate, captivate
Corrupt

Wednesday, 20 January 2010

Jill Tracy - The Other Side of Pain

Those blasted clocks have all run down
Oh, does time stand still without you around
The birds don't sing their little song
The prophecies have all proved wrong

The Persian rugs have gone thread-bare
The waxy moon has lost its flair
The wishes drown beneath the well
The razor blades have all gone dull

But this is confidential, you're the one to blame
And now the forecast calls perpetually for rain
And although it's rather late, I lie awake in vain
'Cause I'm still waiting for what's wonderful
Just the other side of pain

Wednesday, 13 January 2010

Perspektiven / Perspectives - Laibach

[Spoken World ]

Perspektiven / Perspectives)
[Spoken in English:]
Laibach takes over an organisational system of work, after the model of
industrial production and totalitarism, collective spirit, identification
with ideology, which means: not the individual, but the organisation
speaks. Our work is industrial, our language political. Laibach is a
recognition of time universality. Its organisational activity is an
intense agitation and a constant systematic propagating, ideological
offensive. Any social activity affects the mass. Laibach functions as a
creative allusion of strict institutionality, identification with
institution, as stock theatre, or popular culture with a centralized
programme. One transmitter and a multitude of receivers, and with a
communication through uncommunication. Laibach's musical approach is a
move to the area of pure politization of sounds as a means of manipulating
the masses. When, in politically and economically complicated situations,
the antagonism in society is becoming strained, only force remains as the
ultima ratio of social integration. The force must adopt the form of
systematic, physical and psychic terror, organized in accordance with
social relations. Terror is obtaining a function of productional power,
which extorts discipline and an adaptation of the mass, to the existing
productional relations, and the existing productional apparatus. For the
totalitarian form of government, the systematic terror becomes a
constitutional instrument of authority. Through the mystic,
erotic-mythological sound, constitution of an ambivalence between fear and
fascination, which rudimentarily affects the consciousness of people,
through stage performances of ritualized demonstration of political power,
and through other manipulative means of an individual, Laibach practises a
sound force, in a form of systematic, psycho-physical terror as social
organisational principle, in order to effectively discipline and raise a
feeling of total adherence bond of a certain, revolted and alienated
audience, which results in a state of collective [athasia?], which is the
principle of social organisation. In this sense, the function of Laibach,
sound constructions, and of rock concerts is to challenge collective
emotions and automatic associations, and as such it serves as the means of
working stimulation. By darkening the consumer's mind, it drives him into
a state of humble contrition and total obedience, self-sacrifice, by
destroying every trait of individuality, it melts the individuals into a
mass, and mass into a humble, collective body. The dualism of Laibach's
message, perception and receiver's structure uncovers the social neurosis.
Laibach unites the biters and antagonistics into an expression of static,
totalitarism cry. Our basic inspiration, ideals which are not ideals to
their form, but the material of Laibach, manipulation of self, remains an
industrial production: art of the Third Reich, totalitarism, taylorism,
bruitism, disco. Disco rhythm, as a regular repetition, is the purest, the
most radical form of the militantly organised rhythmicity of technicist
production, and as such the most appropriate means of media manipulation.
As an archetypal structural basis of the collective unconscious in a
worker mass, it stimulates automatic mechanism, and shapes
industrialisation of consciousness, which is necessary in the logic of
massive, totalitarian, industrial production.

Tuesday, 5 January 2010

Fox as Totem animal

Overwhelmingly, cultural consensus on fox animal symbolism deals with:

cunning
strategy
quick-thinking
adaptability
cleverness
wisdom

Additional perspectives and cultural viewpoints on the fox animal meanings are as follows:

In China, fox animal symbolism revolved around the afterlife. Lore has it that a fox sighting was thought to be a signal from the spirits of the deceased.

Fox animal symbolism takes a turn of intelligence in the Celtic realm, as the Celts believed the fox to be a guide, and was honored for its wisdom. The Celts understood the fox knows the woods intimately, and they would rely upon the fox as their guide in the spirit world.

In Japan, the fox was considered one of the rain spirits, and a messenger of Inari the rice god. Here the fox also symbolizes longevity and protection from evil.

In Native American lore, fox animal symbolism deals with two interpretations. One perspective (Northern tribes) observes the fox as a wise and noble messenger. The other (Plains tribes) views the fox as a trickster playing pranks, or worse - luring one to demise.

Other generalized fox symbolic meanings deal with

focus
determination
right-action




It is noteworthy to observe the fox while it is on the hunt. We see its entire body is pointed like an arrow - straight and tightly aimed. This is a symbolic message for us to set a determined, and powerfully focused mindset in order to "hit the target" of our desires.

The red in the fox is representative of a solar emblem. As a solar emblem the fox animal symbolism deals with:

passion
desire
intensity
expression

The fox encourages us to think outside of the box and use our intelligence in different, creative ways. The fox also brings us a message to try to approach our circumstances differently that we normally would. Be aware of some of our habits, and try a different angle of action.

The fox also a reminder that we must utilize all of our resources (seen and unseen) in order to accomplish our goals. Sometimes this means calling upon some unorthodox methods.

Furthermore, the fox is a sign to be mindful of our surroundings.

Immaculate shapeshifters and incredibly adaptable, the fox beckons us to not make too many waves but rather, adapt to our surroundings, blend into it, and use our surroundings (and circumstances) to our advantage.

It should be obvious from this summary that fox animal symbolism goes far beyond what we may see on the surface. On the contrary, the fox has an incredible amount of knowledge and wisdom to share with us if/when we are willing to be still for the teachings.

Spend some meditative time with the spirit of the fox - odds are you will be amazed at the powerful insight this regal creature has to offer you.

If you found these fox symbol meanings helpful on your path, you may also be interested in the symbolic meanings of the coyote.