....and around a week later, I am still loosing myself in records but healing is perhaps not the right word.
what's the fucking point of lowering the guard because maybe "I was being too harsh and doubtful about people" if in the end it always ends that way.
Another false alarm? did I read too much into it?
Fuck that, everything and everyone.
I do not believe in "taking things slow" not because I am not able to do so but because it's always a mere excuse to let somebody go "gently".
I have done it and receive it, like many of us.
It's simply not worth uncovering your tender side if, consistently, it gets stabbed with stupid excuses by people unable to decipher, accept and admit their own feelings (or lack thereof).
I had one of the most wonderful 4 days of this year, surrounded by affection and open demonstration to come back to the old fears, paranoias and disillusionment.
I need to get away, soon.